What did After do?
After meant I wasn't
scared of Now.
After meant I knew
those were not last words,
and that maybe my trauma
could do something other than
hurt.
or, other than only hurt.
It still hurt.
But maybe not so much.
Because After wouldnt (likely)
be here without it.
Part of after started
to arrive, no enough
to be fully AFTER,
or even After.
But enough for a dance party,
smiles.
hugs.
Tears too.
But not the same tears as before.
Tears of complicated emotion.
Because Now had the smile
of a dance party, of better
memories, and the fact
that those weren't my last
words.
After gave me this Now.
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